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I made my boy cry tonight
Empty Nest
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I forgot to turn my phone back on; I was an hour late getting home. I was surprised that Critter was still up when I got home -- surprised by stocking-footed Critter running to me in the garage tonight. You're home! You're home! was all I got out him, as he wrapped his long arms around me, before he buried his head in my shoulder and started sobbing.

At first I thought it was just worry about me, but he was so upset, I began to wonder what horrible thing had happened when I wasn't in touch. Then I realized, it really was complete worry about me. And I saw it all going through his head. She's not home, there's no answer on the phone, what if something's happened to her? Saw him at home not knowing.

I made my boy cry tonight.

It took some time to get in the house; we sat on the couch together. Curled up with each other, just holding on. Talking and crying, and tickling and laughing and crying some more.

How will you know if I've come home, when you're no longer here? I'll just assume, and I won't have any proof that you aren't.

How will I know that you're back in your room, when you're no longer here? I guess I'll have to assume.


I have been crying all day long, off and on. It's been that kind of soul-baring, soft-hearted day.

I would give anything to go back 6 hours and put my phone in the car, rather than turning it off.

I won't give up the wisdom of tonight.

How will you know if I've come home, when you're no longer here? I'll just assume, and I won't have any proof that you aren't.

And, how will I know that you're back in your room, when you're no longer here? I guess I'll have to assume.
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He's such a sweetie. :)

Plus, he has faith in you - he believes that you'll be where you're supposed to be, even without proof that you're there. And no matter how far away he is physically, he's only ever a phone call away. :)

What a horrible feeling! I've been on Critter's end before, but seeing it from a parent's perspective is all new for me. What a mix or horror and joy...to be missed and to cause the deep missing...

You know, it made me hurt so much for him, but I wouldn't give up the special quiet time that we had, chillin out together, ramping down the fear and worry.

I'm blessed to have such loving children.

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