July 15th, 2004

bundled up, walkabout, snow

been munching

and i had this idle thought.

Googled progesterone and appetite.


Progesterone can be used to treat appetite loss.


Oh well, I'm only taking the stuff 10 days a month. Better watch myself, though.

Swam four whole laps tonight. Considering that last night I ended up sitting in the chaise lounge and reading instead of any swimming, this is an improvement. But, I was *choke*gasp*wheeze* outside in the sunlight awhile, playing with the goats. Today I stayed inside and ate sugar cookies. And three helpings of dinner. Which recipe we shall acquire. yummmm

Monday, I didn't swim that much at Schlitterbahn, spending most of my wet time in the lazy river, but I *did* hike all the way to the other end of the park for the one ride we took.

For my kind of vacations, I'd say I'm get more than the usual amount of exercise.

One thing I've learned, though. My earplug works better for swimming than it does for showering. So I've asked Flar to see about how I can swim with him at the club.

Woke up quite despondent, shed enough of it into writing, so that was a good call. I briefly flirted with being angry, as a much more I don't know, *active* emotion, but I can't BE angry. Closest I can come is frustration, more so with myself than anyone.

Swimming was good and bad for emotions. Got some of the physical exertion feelings of high scale tantrums out of my system. Need more, though.

mmm. sleepy. maybe i won't need a movie, after all.
bundled up, walkabout, snow

Happy today -- should write about the good times, too.

I woke up optimistic and cuddly and happy this morning.

My bible reading was Acts 14. It's all about Paul and Barnabas bringing Christ's message to the gentiles, and being persecuted, and persevering, and performing miracles. As a personal message, it seemed like one of encouragement and optimism.

My prayers are filled with others. So many of my friends hurting or anxious or going through difficult times. Want comfort for so many people.

And, hee hee, tickly feet - Mom's pom is licking my toes right now. :)

I didn't wake up with tears this morning.

I didn't wake up with anger or dismay or self-recriminiation or any of the bad stuff.

Gonna hang on to a good mood while it's here.

We're thinking of
  • Getting the station wagon checked over for the return trip home
  • Watching Two Brothers
  • Swimming
  • Vegging -- it's vacation, remember!

oh, and I'm having a boinky, sproingy, bouncy hair day.
bundled up, walkabout, snow

mid-afternoon update

I am quite warm, thank you.

We walked from the Valvoline to a chicken place and ate lunch while they changed the oil. Technically, Flar only asked for me to have them check all the fluids, but Mom offered to pay for new oil, so who am I to refuse? It's supposedly only 91°F here, but it's also a sunny day. The chicken place was two doors down, so not a long walk. What has me warm is riding in the station wagon from the Valvoline to the grocery and home, since neither trip was long enough to cool the thing down. I am a creature of caves and swamps, thank you.

I don't know if we're going to Two Brothers today or tomorrow. Mom doesn't like being gone with Daddy gets home for work -- because he doesn't like that, even though he hasn't figure it out for himself. ;)

We'll swim regardless. Just don't know when, yet.

We got all the groceries needed to make yummy car food.

Reading now...
bundled up, walkabout, snow

Maybe the drugs are kicking in?

I already posted about waking up in a much better mood.

Little things aren't getting to me. Like Mom driving to the wrong movie theatre, which really bothered her.

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But the clincher for why I suspect the drugs?

Sydb wrote about them getting haircuts yesterday. She wrote about the stylist: "She also gave Wolf a lot of guff about cutting his hair, wondering if his wife was going to come after her for cutting it all off."

I'm not vengeful, so the answer still would have been no. But when we were still together this would have hurt a lot.


It didn't.

It's gotta be the drugs.

And, not going to relent to the progesterone: Only having one piece of pizza.

Pizza is evil.

I did swim six laps today. Then sat in a cool movie theatre, watching Two Brothers. Then I cleaned out the car, looking for a lost check that was in fact in my purse all along. I think I'm cooler than when I was warm, but the car-search certainly undid some of the water wet goodness.

Gonna watch Matrix Revolutions now.